My religion (part 2/2 on My "dealings" with feelings)

I was raised and confirmed Lutheran Christian, and I did enjoy my experience within the church.  But I never really felt like I could feel a relationship between myself and God.  I just couldn't force feed myself love I didn't feel like was there for me. I believe in Love, a transcendent Love, but I could not feel it just in myself.  The teachings and parables of the Bible deeply intrigued me, and I have my Sunday School teachers and my family to thank for raising me with such a benevolent and loving community, but it was only the love of the people I could put a finger on at first.  When I realized the Love Jesus had was for the children of God, I then realized that's the Love I should focus on spreading.

Later after reading Ralph Waldo Emerson, I found many of my implicit ideas of Love manifest explicit in his works, viz. that of nature's offerings.  Nature gives us absolutely everything we could ever need to live.  It also is bound together by some kind of "Universal glue" as you might call it, the laws of nature, and all nature is is a constant balance of different forms from the same basic essence.  Nature gives us so much to look at, yet reflects the same idea everywhere: balance.

I go to the Unitarian Universalist Churches ( http://www.uua.org/beliefs/what-we-believe/principles ) as of recently because of my own interest, also my stepfather the philosophy professor goes, also Emerson was a Unitarian minister back in the day until he rebelled to write and philosophize some more, also it's all freaking inclusive!  I could not think of a community more in line with my values than one which allows all.  I don't think all NEED to go there to practice, I simply believe all should realize we are at base made of the same, worth the same to an earthquake's "judgement", and need to stop dividing ourselves based off of stupid differences in ideology or form ( http://www.msnbc.com/msnbc-quick-cuts/watch/bernie-sanders-gets-personal-on-religion-629654595662 )

You might wonder how I worship.  I worship every day, every moment, and the subject of my worship is exactly that human element which connects us all, it is not just a human element either - it connects us to the very dirt on our soles, and the "Sols" of the sky.  Let us be one with that.  It's comforting and simple to me, that's all I need honestly.

Sure we won't take down all the walls and distinctions that divide us as humans, but we'd damn do better if we tried.  If you understand that people can't simply generate ideas, that they can only form ideas from what has been presented to them by their experiences, then understand that the morally unlucky by accident of birth can't simply generate the ideas and therefore belief to carry out action and become habit so that they'd simply go "rags to riches", B1TCH35, you're missing the point.  It frustrates me that people may think that others are absolutely responsible for their own success in a world which deprives many others of the opportunities and the proper experiences which allow them to have success. You may be lucky enough to believe otherwise, but that doesn't mean you can tell me exactly what everyone else actually knows explictly and can act on.  So I merely believe we must do whatever it is to take down these distinctions and this unwillingness to take care of others when they have no one who took care of them homeless or starving or without love.

Personally, I have found it hard sometimes to see love in certain places.  And I'm not saying to be unrealistic.  There are threats in this world, and I simply see action on them as a balance requited for the future good of humanity.  Do good, and take care of the bad.  We need to learn the right way to evaluate those together, so we don't have all these interpretations and all these directions we fight and keep away the potential for harmony.  I honestly don't even know though if half the people in my ethics class however, are intending on contemplating that for more than a 30 minute homework assignment.  If we don't live this everyday, what is this?  It's fucking sad.  How do you challenge those people to actually invest and care, when they don't even know themselves or know their cares or know how to care?

I believe in love, Love, luv, but only that which connects, not that which allows for separation, and believe in your love for your material purposes, what good is it actually to the whole?  Is it connecting at the expense of separation?  Maybe for now, that's the best we can do.

Just realize pure love is love for all.